Hi, i will go by the name Aisha on tumblr. Im new to this and i love photography. Its my way of exspession, it gets me by. Poetry is my everything, using words to change my life letter by letter i realease alot of tension within my soul. Im a pisces and if you know alot about astrology you will know alot about me already. I love all of you. You all are beautiful. <3
I don't understand suicide, i mean its just stupid, selfish and the easy way out...
Someone at school:
you don't get it do you? those people don't want to die they just want to end the pain inside, the pain neither you or I see, it's not a last minute decision, people who commit suicide plan it for months. For months all they have in their mind is How? Why? Where? When, so please don't tell me it's the 'easy way out' you have never been in the position of someone wanting to kill themselves, do you know how hard it is to fight your body because your brain wants you to survive, you don't understand how hard it is to Jump off that building, swallow those pills, jump in front of that train, drink that bleach. Also do not tell me that it's selfish, what's selfish are the people who aren't seeing the signs and aren't helping them, suicide isn't selfish. Suicide is a desperate act by someone who is in intense pain and wants their pain to stop. That is a human response to extreme pain, not a selfish one. And over 90 percent of the people who die by suicide have a mental illness at the time of their death, so they are not thinking clearly. Saying that a person who had severe clinical depression, schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, PTSD, or a similar illness was engaging in an act of selfishness when they died by suicide – even though their thought process, mood, and judgment were greatly affected by their mental illness – is not only inaccurate, but downright cruel, to both the suicide angel and the suicide survivors.
*By this time everyone in my class had turned round and was staring at me blankly with their mouths open wide, including my English teacher.*
I am back!!!
Just remembered my password.. Feels weird being back on here. The last time I was on this I had a boyfriend who blamed me for making him suicidal everyday so I tried my best to help people on tumblr on anon just so I could make myself feel better. Well, I’m back after a few months and I’ve left him because I found out he cheated on me with my best friend, and now I’ve been diagnosed with depression and all I think about is suicide. It’s crazy how the tables can turn.. My tumblr will be a bit different to how it used to be. Stay strong lovelys
I’m lost within my thoughts… At least in not so far away…
Pure evil lurks inside us all.
I showed my support by writing love on my wrist, I did I no matter how hard it was to put the pen and touch my own wrist. I have some huge fear about wrists. First time ive ever written on my wrist. Proud of myself haha.. But no matter how much good I mean I still manage to make him feel to self harm. I am such a bad person. I hate myself an awful lot..
Reblog this if you wrote “love” on your wrists today
This is the note we found in her room. She’s gone, she’s really gone. My best friend, my whole world, my lesbian lover, the one who picks me up when I’m down, the one I can always count on, the one who made me laugh till I cried, she’s gone. Taylor was the most amazing girl you could meet. She was funny, sweet, crazy, kind, beautiful, she was amazing. But now, she’s gone. And you see what’s done it to her? You fucking dick heads who go on anon and send people hate. Trust me, she’s not the only one who’s done it either. Because of you fuckers, her bestfriend and her boyfriend had to walk in on her dead body. How the fuck do you feel? Knowing you killed a beautiful 18 year old girl, is it nice? I went on her tumblr and found these:
If you sent ANY of these, you need to rethink your life. I can not believe it, after seeing how she was thinking about it, you go ahead and fucking send her these. It’s SICK. You fucking killed, this beautiful girl:
R.I.P - Taylor Connor, September 5th 2012. xx
mother fuckers need to reblog this and think twice about sending hate.
You hateful anons need to learn to fuck off. You see what you all cause? There is no need for hate here. Tumblr should be a safe place where we can all just have fun and blog. But no some people have to be pricks and hurt people to the point where they take their own lives. I hope all you anons who send hurtful messages live with guilt for the rest of your miserable lives. And R.I.P. Taylor Connor I’m sorry your life was filled with pain in it’s last moments :( I wish you the best wherever you are now and my heart goes out to her family and friends.
I don’t hate hateful anons. Bcause I’m better than hating, I feel sorry for them, they will have so much guilt and so much pain. Tumblr will fin out who you are but Taylor still won’t come back. A life was taken because of so much hate. This earth is filled will so much evil sometimes I wish I could live in some other dream land I’ve created. There are so much evil that we see everyday but on tumblr their an anon. We all might even Know one of them. Imagine your family member committed suicide because of hate. Imagine that? How much will you regret doing it yourself? All I know is that I will never do that, I go on anon and I call suicidal people beautiful because that is what they are! We are all beautiful!! I don’t even believe in God that much but we are here for a reason. Maybe not because of god but we were born for a purpose and we can not fulfil that if we don’t survive. I do wonder about this world sometimes. Rest in peace beautiful, you deserve some after the pain you felt in your last moments.